标题: How my mother loves you [打印本页] 作者: leylong0t 时间: 2013-6-22 07:10
标题: How my mother loves you
day, I dropped out,pas cher Nike Air Max, I did not dare say that drop out, just tell the teacher that something happens at home, and then hurried away. I did not go home, but a long, long wandering. I am full of apprehension, I do not know is right or wrong, but, the heart has been filled with guilt. It is filled with love like the phrase you care "Never mind, do not be too concerned about, the exam is good, dead people blame you, quiz try it" is like a sword, deeply hurt me. Gave me a sense of pressure, so I'm timid, and then retreated. You always do, do not let my life be repaired bonsai like to enjoy the same love, has been laissez-faire, so I can not really independent of your life. I can not face you, nor ever thought back, I gave up on myself.
I decided to become self-reliant, began his new life, although I know he is a very good school way, but I still think that if they can get paid, perhaps, our lives have changed, and then not eating surprise you from the snow to retrieve the two small poor pigeon, like what a sumptuous dinner, though, I do not know how to die, do not know how long dead, or so with relish.
I thought maybe go out and play a job, would be a good choice, because there are a lot of people went to the south, each able to come back with a lot of good food, comfort adjacent. I am confident that I can be, better than them, at least do not have to stay at home, always be looked down upon. People are poor ambition, neighbors, isolated, until one day, you can also look up, not so educate your son, "swallow, submissive."
Finally, a friend and I by chance, hurriedly went to the north, though, those who do not belong to the world of feasting themselves alone enjoying this strange world to bring my loneliness and low self-esteem, my inner world struggle and resistance has given me confidence that I have always been. In a villa restaurant, I made a chef fatigues, in order to practice a knife, I stand eight hours a day, cut to bleeding easily, but also to put forward the local dialect offal chef brought me insult you endure forbearance enough, learning has become, do not see people in the face, although the poor to the hundreds of pieces of salary, that is what I need the money. I need it to change our lives.
In addition to spending every day, and I plan carefully. A few months, I seem to have a point of balance, I began to rejoice, and I finally have savings, so I decided not willing to give all these years you bought new clothes, a surprise. That piece blouse that I only spent 70 dollars to buy, but, you say you have clothes to wear vain, in fact, I know that you are reluctant, both want to wear, we can not bear to spend money, as you give nurse pleaded, 5 cents of disposable syringes, can use several times as much. I was suddenly very sad.
I do not do the poor, I do not want to be looked down on, so I learned how to spend money, "lavish flower", from my hide his personal life, among those seemingly carefree group, contact no longer at home, but also do not want to think about you, I need to start vanity, of course, has become a full paycheck to paycheck, although revenue known, but I still have no money to shut down the phone charge calls to the point where a few stops months later, until one day made a salary, I think over the phone did not ring a long time before they pay the bill, phone just pass, rings, is calling you, the phone, you just Huanguo my name, they shouted themselves hoarse, sobbing. did not know you holding the phone, playing long, short, you are hopeful Egypt until now, for fear put up the phone, his son is not. eyes suddenly surfaced you eagerly Heartbreakers find my scene, blood in leave than fathers, your urgent call, called back from the dream he wanted, but also made me feel sad.
You gave me life, has been my personal life achievements grief and hate you, I hate your birth, I hate you did not give me a happy family, I wished he could have freedom, I hate real life so I only had a vision ...... I hate You gave me everything, but at this moment I am only willing to kneel in front of you, because I know you is a favorite of my mother.